I bet you are wondering why the casting director kicked me out from the audition. Remember, it was in the 1990s and did not have good news for the deaf.

When my talent agent asked me to go audition for Walker, Texas Ranger tv show, and that casting director know my agent. She walked with me to the studio and auditioned. The director decided to let me go because of my look like a kid. That role is for wife.

So, the next audition was for Helen Keller role and not sure what kind of role I was auditioning for. My agent told me to match with one young boy. I accepted. I went to different places for audition, and many people were there. Anyway, CD was there and saw me. Before they called our names for audition, she told me to go home, and I puzzled why she wanted me to go home. Worse, my partner, young boy, passed off at her.

He was mad and called the talent agent immediately. He looked at me, and I told him I had no idea why. I drove to my talent agent and talked with her about it. She told me that a young boy called before I came by. All of us disappointed with the casting manager.

That happened.

~DW

Why my life deprives? Let’s go back to 1990s and I have pretty much good job in Dallas, Texas as Administrative Assistant. I thought I took it seriously and put myself more imagine so took the acting classes. I actually do enjoy the classes and learned lot from mentors and celebrities. They suggested me to join the talent agent and I did one of talent agent has been sending me to few auditions and casting director kept kicked me out from auditions. I still going and going until my contact running out. I performed at theater and find me another talent agent and pretty much goal for it.  I signed the contract for SAG and set up the goal for a year to play with one of their sons in feature film. I was so exciting as unfortunately laid off from my job. But in the couple months later, I found me next job as Data Entry. I have no idea what life would like to be.

During the time, I met one girl and have few friends. I thought great to meet few friends that I never go out often, so I did and enjoy my life in middle 20s. On April 1997, I have promised my talent agent to come back for sign contract for another year and this girl actually take my life away from acting career. The contract and SAG gone! I was so confused and new to me with this relationship and my jobs are gone. I meant my new job as Data Entry gone! I was so shamed and upset because I do not understand the universal among me. I never find me a job or acting career anymore. I tried many jobs applications after I decided to leave this girl who I loved so much. I felt so low and shamed.

I remembered that I have business classes in high school and college, so I try to take it easy, but no one support me by ideas I had made. No business job for me. No acting, no business or no lifestyle for me.  My life actually taken.

Well, in about 15 years later, I found in St Louis, Missouri where I live in. This guy is great role for me, and he is young director I ever seen.  He made the movie once and wanted to do the second movie, so I joined his team as Production Assistant and started to fall in love with acting again. I took some classes for acting and refreshed.  Yes, I have a job as Billing Processor and soon laid off again. I have partner who support me and own house. After the movie released, I started to be finding me background role in many different film and television. I was so happy to take it back but had scared from the past I had before. It hurts me so much because I can’t get talent agent again. I am free agent and manage myself to those casting director who would take me to play the background role which is fine with me.

After the laid off, a year later, I found me a job as General Clerk II and kept going to his filming and mine acting career same time. I know sound stressed so I moved to condo and live alone. My live partner moved to her condo, too. I got the part for deaf theater so loved it much and you should watch us. My life taken. No.

Moved to Alabama last 5 years ago, I have job changed again and drove to Atlanta, Georgia for filming and television for background roles. No talent agent. No business set up. My life is just building up and there is no suppose under the building, it could be fall apart. I would love to have this business working and acting career working. I am free agent and enjoy the life rest of time.

Forward the future. My life should not take yet.

~ DW

Invite to New Year Eve party at my friend’s barn. I never think I would be chatting with friends on the porch. I have brought a book to read while celebrating the New Year 2024 with them.

Somehow, I get attention to new faces and chatting with others. One person comes in since she was alone, separated from us, and friends called her to come to join us. I never thought about what she would say anything about family and name, etc.

I was normal quiet and shared laughter with them until a new person asked me to introduce myself as name, born here, and move forward and back here for living with my parents.

She started asking me if I was mainstreamed, and I said yeah. She said deaf school is better than mainstreamed. I was like, who doesn’t care about deaf school. She said parents do not understand and do not use sign language, etc. I told her my parents used the sign language and she silence.

Her parents do sign language, so I did not give damm about deaf school. I choose not to go to deaf school, period. It is up to kids, preferably, and parents can be unaware of deaf culture. Who knows. I would go to mainstreamed if there are deaf programs, then no problem at all.

I don’t give a damm!

~DW

There are different sign languages in the world. Many times, I have watched those vlogs and ended up. They use BSL, as known as British Sign Language. In the USA, we only use the ASL, as known as American Sign Language.

It is hard to understand those BSL and other sign languages when come in Tiktok, Facebook, or Instagram videos. We are only aware of universal sign language that is very common to visible communication with those deaf people who come from foreign or overseas.

If we had studied those languages in sign language then that would be great like foreign language at school course.

No one knows about foreign language in school that offers sign language because of the language alike. I have seen sign language classes in my school years. I was in hearing classes with interpreter and teacher sign language to communicate with us (three of us are deaf). Then middle school and high school, there are few students who can sign language when around deaf students too.

That brings me think about this. Thank you!

~DW

I am not sure where to find this title from. Hehe. Anyway, this time about Show and Tell – Expression.

Today, I had conversations with someone and noticed myself being shown and telling by my expression. It made them blown up for nothing. I’m wondering why. Yes, I did make the face looking angry, but I’m just making conversations. It shows that it destroyed my role model to them.

I remembered one CDI (certificate Deaf Interpreter) that made a vlog about pets from the store. I can see his expression and emotional anger at the seller who refused to give him a pet because of deaf. I can understand his frustration about it, but his expression shows the bad advice of the client to the seller. He could lose his role model to them.

That is a kind of deaf culture. Well, there are more cultures in the world. American African, Asian, Middle Eastern, European, Hispanic, and disabilities have their cultures. They have been fighting for the rights, and cultures are different from anyone who believes in.

It not meant everyone has SAME cultures. You have your culture in your life that can be agreed with.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

~DW

The night that happened, watch television about Neighbors War. Many scenes told stories about people who believe they are correct but blame other or neighbors. They would call cops or lawyers, whatever.

Also, Court War, too.

Hey, about elders has been trouble with cops or people. I have seen in my eyes with those elders who have mental challenges when becoming older. Their mind are less and not enough realized that was wrong. Like alzheimer or disease, illness cause mental challenges.

They were taken to jail and sentences whenever and nothing helped?

Pot uses or blames others? Health issued comes out badly and put them in jail for what? They do not understand what is going on. Could have gone to mental health care for something going on with them.

That would cost them for no reason. I know jail is free for everyone, but it made everyone look bad.

DW