A lot of you know family tend to gathering together for Thanksgiving day.

Well I looked past of my life and I always got this be sure I have something with family. My dad’s side always wanted me to have family together but not sure about my mom’s side because they are far away and spread from us.

Many times, I love to hang with my cousins and play football before the game started. You know Dallas Cowboys and Detroit Lions has games on Thanksgiving Thursday annually. Now we are not playing football anymore because of family comes first and older. Our kids come and chatting with their cousins. They play on games and tag each other. What a generation!

Foods are everywhere on table! First at grandparents tiny house with 7 kids plus their kids. We had walk through the crowd and three tables in back room. We walk in line and take foods. Last thing is dessert and drink. Where we sit? Back to living room but no one sits. Few in kitchen where dining is. Few sits outside. Few in living room. Me? Sit the floor in living room with my cousins. Later on, after my granny passed away and we moved to my uncle’s house. His house is big enough for all 7 kids plus their kids. Where is food? All are in kitchen and dining room. We still do in line and take foods. Last always dessert and drink. I sat in living room with my mom or cousins.

Some another years, we moved to aunt’s house. I remembered one year we were at one of my aunts and it is small house. I have to sat and ate in one of my cousins room! Yes in his bedroom! 😆

Few times, my uncle wanted to rental restaurant for Thanksgiving day. We did few times and overheard that everyone want the taste like our grandparents meal on Thanksgiving. We decided move back to my uncle again. It been keep going on till the further notice.

What about yours? About my deafness? Check on next blog.

~DW

Oh my heart has been broken

no one understands me

my heart broken, why they put me unseen list

I always been here, no one sees me

on my heart

my heart has been broken

no one understands or see me

they left me without knowing where I goes

I always been here, no one sees me

no one understands me

they left me without seeing me where I goes

I not know where they goes and leave me alone

yes, alone, my heart broken

I felt so torn by people

they not see me or understand me

oh my heart

has been broken…..

Lay there under the sun

Close my eyes

Felt melt over my face

From sun

Not want to turn

Away from sun

Felt melt over my face

From sun

Lay there under the sun

Close my eyes

Felt melt in my face

Not want to turn

away from sun

felt melt in my face

from sun

melt in my face from sun

I was get my lunch out and someone make stuipd joke question. Know what the question was?

“where did you buy?” Within laughing! WITH LAUGHING? She should be shit! Of course she is hearing and dumb. I mean not deaf and dumb. Hearing and dumb. Yeah I am paying back!

Don’t mess with deaf! My answer was “purple onion” No I should have answered, “duh? Where did you that joke from?” It is not joke to ask that kind question.

That is just not nice thing to ask.

SIGH ~DW

That kind of handle of person tell people who you are? You felt insulted. Insulted? Imagine this. I was trying to order the meal and my co worker tell the cashier that “she is deaf” I turned to her and the cashier. I would drop the order because felt it is not nice to say when I tried to order the meal.

Well she try to be nice tell the cashier….could be right….can be wrong.

If you tell people that person is mentally challenged or legal blind? How do you feel about that?

Anything feedbacks. Sure! My written on the mobile.

LOVE YA! ~DW

Yes. Yes, we all are talking to ourselves. You are not only one. I know there is good things and bad things. I always talking all the time to myself and of course to others If possible. Lot of time I signed and think I am talk to them! Lol. They not ever know sign language. Smiles!

My dad talked in his mathematics all the time and I never understood him!

My co worker talked to me. I could hear her talking behind my back but not understanding the words. Roll my eyes. Worker actually talk to me but don’t. You get the picture?

Some are mental part know as SPD but others are not. Talking in your head, lip moving or ever sign language.

wrote here on my phone (mobile) it is hard to type here within all words in my thinks. I left this real short and sweet.

winks!

~DW. Keep staying.

let’s start here. Many times I heard from people told stories about their experiences with bishops or priests who think they are GOD. Deaf people always been frustrated by their families for cure to be hear again. Well, look whatever they were deaf at birth and no way to heal cure to be hearing. If want cure then make them to be hearing to put cochlear implant. No I not mean to be rude but humor saying. Many of us called CI as robots.

Many of deaf dislike wearing hearing aides because they think they not need hear so deaf is peace…no noises. Not sure how many deaf people wore HA? I sees some of them wore like me. I raised the experience with eyes and hearing.

Elders does loss the hearing and wore hearing aides. Not meant they are deaf like us. They just lost their hearing but experience more than us. We, deaf experience without hearing in our life. One person who is DJ and profoundly deaf. He does DJ like hearing person, he raised practically listened all the time and aware on rhythm over and over til get it. Same thing with hard of hearing listen the words and speak. Many deaf has different experiences in their life.

Me? Hearing lot of sounds and not much on words. I speak whisper so no one understands me. I played sports like normal and dances. Musical. Science-based words. Lip reader. Can’t think anymore.

Ask me if I got cochlear implants. My answer is unfortunately can’t have the surgery success. If happen, I would put it on my right ear. Why right ear is because it is profound deaf. My left ear is starting loss hearing.

Okay, let’s say repeat about deafness is possible for being deaf. Few causes: earwax builds up, generating disabilities, generating deaf families, illnesses and loss hearing in late bloom.

Me? Unknown. Born as normal but deaf. Our family guessed disabilities in the family.

THAT’S ALL, FOLKS!

~DW

no! I been in public school those years but called myself mainstreamed school? I learned that mainstreamed school meant special education? Whoa! go back. Sigh. Yes I am deaf and normal student with better IQ. Look back, in the small town, I actually in hearing classes without sign language interpreter when kid and also had deaf kids class within all ages in one room. When about 6, went to University of Montevallo for couple years for some special needs. I moved north of Alabama and went to go public school in deaf 3rd grade and found out I only know my name. No idea what class is about!?! Pulled me back to deaf kindergarten when I was 8! I re-learn till get to my normal level and moved to Texas, went to the hearing 3rd grade with sign language interpreter when I was 11! Yup, I went through all in hearing classes in elementary school year. In middle school years, I took science and math in hearing classes so took others in deaf classes. In high school, I took science, history and math…..English in hearing classes. Tricky, I put English out and in deaf classes too! I know I took of adventure. I am highest IQ for deaf classes so I had to tutoring all deaf students in English, science and math.

what is those words meant to you? Mainstreamed school? Public school? Deaf school?

~DW

Okay. Let’s say here short and sweet. I was trying make comments you know. Well I would use my sign language to talk and people could call that “throw their arms up” like crazy. Probably can be weird to them.

what do you think? Natural? Make dumb look at us? We can call that, too. We made millions of dumb looks with people too. We sometimes thinks those people crazy or weird, too. No one perfect!

yes could be wrong interpreting in bad situation language like fake sign language. We can see that. People not know that. We have to teach the right signs and make it sense.

more than that? There you go.

~DW

I wanted to tell you two different words means and may add other word.

Frustration is my forever issue because of those people never learn to make communication or work together. It always frustrating me. If people know me and know how to make communication and work together then I would be very great attitude! LOL I know I am funny and easy to hang with. Those people was just do their side and their think. There is no excuse.

Temper is out of order. People are dumb enough to think those deafies always been temper. Us? Deaf? No, that is not true. Frustration is right word for us, deafies. If they do the easy anger then that is temper but short time. Not meant forever! Those people not learn that either. Temper is temper.

Panic is everyone’s best friend. No one know it does look like frustration or anger signal to face people. I have anxiety each time they talk to me and I become panic due by trying to understand, felt like sweaty or started can’t breath good.

Sensitive is everyone’s enemy. They have different individual of their sensitive sides. It could be animals, foods, OCD, smelling, touching, or taste. You name it.

Let me drop this word of Frustrating about.

Definition of frustration

1: the act of frustrating the frustration of creative instinct is a notorious evil of the machine age— The Times Literary Supplement (London)

2a: the state or an instance of being frustrated These bureaucratic delays have been causing us a lot of frustration.

b: a deep chronic sense or state of insecurity and dissatisfaction arising from unresolved problems or unfulfilled needs loneliness and frustration; those are two constant themes in American literature— Malcolm Cowley

3: something that frustrates the government’s frustrations with seemingly insoluble problems

Let me drop this word temper about.

Definition of temper

 (Entry 1 of 2)

1a: heat of mind or emotion : proneness to anger : PASSION she has a real temper

b: calmness of mind : COMPOSURE

c: state of feeling or frame of mind at a particular time usually dominated by a single strong emotion

d: a characteristic cast of mind or state of feeling : DISPOSITION

2a: characteristic tone : TREND the temper of the times

b: high quality of mind or spirit : COURAGE

c archaic : a suitable proportion or balance of qualities : a middle state between extremes : MEAN, MEDIUM virtue is … a just temper between propensities— T. B. Macaulay

d archaic : CHARACTER, QUALITY the temper of the land you design to sow— John Mortimer

3a: the state of a substance with respect to certain desired qualities (such as hardness, elasticity, or workability)especially: the degree of hardness or resiliency given steel by tempering

b: the feel and relative solidity of leather

4: a substance (such as a metal) added to or mixed with something else (such as another metal) to modify the properties of the latter

Definition of temper (Entry 2 of 2)

1: to dilute, qualify, or soften by the addition or influence of something else : MODERATE temper justice with mercy

2a: to anneal or toughen (glass) by a process of gradually heating and cooling

b(1): to harden (a material, such as steel) by reheating and cooling in oil

(2): to soften (a material, such as hardened steel or cast iron) by reheating at a lower temperature

3: to make stronger and more resilient through hardship : TOUGHEN troops tempered in battle

4: to bring to a suitable state by mixing in or adding a usually liquid ingredient: such as

a: to mix (clay) with water or a modifier (such as grog) and knead to a uniform texture

b: to mix oil with (colors) in making paint ready for use

5a: to put in tune with something : ATTUNE

b: to adjust the pitch of (a note, chord, or instrument) to a temperament

6 archaic

a: to exercise control over : GOVERN, RESTRAIN

b: to cause to be well disposed : MOLLIFY tempered and reconciled them both— Richard Steele

Other word?

Sensitive?

Definition of sensitive

 (Entry 1 of 2)

1: SENSORY sense 2

2a: receptive to sense impressions

b: capable of being stimulated or excited by external agents (such as light, gravity, or contact)sensitive cells

3: highly responsive or susceptible: such as

a(1): easily hurt or damaged especially: easily hurt emotionally

(2): delicately aware of the attitudes and feelings of others

b: excessively or abnormally susceptible : HYPERSENSITIVE sensitive to egg protein

c: readily fluctuating in price or demand sensitive commodities

d: capable of indicating minute differences : DELICATE sensitive scales

e: readily affected or changed by various agents (such as light or mechanical shock)a photographic emulsion sensitive to red light

f: highly radiosensitive

4a: concerned with highly classified government information or involving discretionary authority over important policy matters sensitive documents

b: calling for tact, care, or caution in treatment : TOUCHY a sensitive issue like race relations

5: having or showing concern for a specified matter —usually used in combination a price-sensitive customer environmentally sensitive policies

Definition of sensitive (Entry 2 of 2)

1: a person having occult or psychical abilities

2: a sensitive person

Panic?

Definition of panic

 (Entry 1 of 3)

1: of, relating to, or resembling the mental or emotional state believed induced by the god Pan panic fear

2: of, relating to, or arising from a panic panic buying panic selling a panic retreat

3: of or relating to the god Pan Panic rites

 (Entry 2 of 3)

1a: a sudden overpowering fright also: acute, extreme anxiety

b: a sudden unreasoning terror often accompanied by mass flight widespread panic in the streets

c: a sudden widespread fright concerning financial affairs that results in a depression of values caused by extreme measures for protection of property (such as securities)

2 dated slang : someone or something that is very funny : RIOT panic

Definition of panic (Entry 3 of 3)

transitive verb: 1: to affect with panic

2: to cause to laugh uproariously panic an audience with a gag

intransitive verb: to be affected with panic

Anything add to this….

Boring lecture from me. LOL

~ DW