Good Hiring? I would say Nope. Why?

I have been working along with coworkers and ever few of deaf coworkers. Okay, let me tell you little about past of my job history. When I got my first job position as Mailroom Clerical. They knew I am young and start full time position. I started to speak on my own voice but epic fail. Next few years, I promoted to Administration Assistant Support. I thought it would be wonderful to work with coworkers as team for next few years. More epic fail due to new management wanted me to remove and not want me to be display as worker. I was laid off because of changing location and age.

Next job, I was hired. I keep my own think and get along with coworkers till I met one deaf worker. She is more advanced than me and she does speak well. I felt so low and work harder alike hers. My relationship with love and job become more tough like juggle. I dropped the ball and followed my love relationship. More epic fail. Next, met more deaf workers who able to speak. I felt more down and wondering how I turn that to them instead of deaf person who able to speak?

Moved to other state, got job full time position and excited to work there. One deaf person able to speak but can’t read lip! I can read lip well but can’t speak. I have to interrupting for her when have to understand what is going on in meetings. She wanted a live interrupter to communicate with better. I agreed. Along the years, working together till she decides to withdraw, and force retired. I stayed for more years till laid off due to changing company.

Many times, I am looking for a job that matches me and interviews me. They always asked me to speak, and I told them no because I can’t. They wanted someone to speak and not want deal with deaf person who can’t speak. I met few deaf people who work and able to speak. I noticed that is not right thing to do. Why have with them wanted that? CI (Cochlear Implants) people were hired so quickly! They think it is great for deaf able to speak. Well, they are wrong. CI people sometimes get in lost comminate or misunderstand because they born deaf and not training alike hearing does.

Now Hard of Hearing does speak and hired, too. I met few and had one friend who raised with me in school years. They brag how they get job easy and etc. It is not about them disabled and it is about their experience talents or degrees. Not deaf who are not able to speak and experience talents or universities are not hiring.

You decide what you see in their resumes and not realized that person is deaf?

DW

You know I born deaf since toddler. No fever. No deaf generation. Nothing, just normal. I know my family has disabled generation. My parents did not notice me being deaf till I was about a year old. I was so active, and sounds did not bother me. The doctor found out that I am deaf by feeling the vibrate on his desk and told my parents.

At the first time, I went to vocational rehibition in Alabama. They took tested my audiology and see how much deaf I am. They told us that my left ear is hard of hearing and right ear is deaf.

As kid, I never notice on my hearing issues because I was so attention by face to face because I have to read the lips. I never think of my hearing so who cares. You know I am very active and cannot sit one place. I loved to be playing so they decide to play with me with therapy lessons. Speech and listening. I never listening so I kept look away all the time and find something to do.

I did not learn ASL/SEE till I was 5 years old with my mom. Only I know the home signs with family and friends. When sign language comes up and get my real attention. I still not listening, even wore hearing aids. All I think hearing aids is just hearing SOUNDS like door rang, phone rings, screaming or train passing. That I would listen to.

Yes, back to my mom’s womb, we (mom and me) listen to jukebox. I always stick to record album desk to listen all albums but REAL listening? Nope. Remember I am AHAD as kid. I did not attention to it, just feel the vibrate the music. It’s made me feel relaxing. Right now? I only use the radio when I was driving. I would allow music freedom at home when I wear the hearing aids. One day, I would demand to have record album desk. LOL.

All the years, with audiologist. My mom or dad would tell them how much deaf I am when I was kid. As adult, I have told them how much deaf I am. They can focus on my left ear first before use my right ear. The famous audiology building box, I LOVED it. LOL. On headphone, I listened on my left ear. They can voice and reported her on words that I would understand clearly. Not much words I would understand. My right ear silences. Next, they wanted me to hear some of high, middle, or low frequencies on my left ear. I raise my hand. Then use my right ear, raise my hand. Both, same thing. They asked words on my right ear and heard like confused, unstable, or rattled. I cannot understand those words. They took the headphone to bone conduction headphone. Test on my right ear, not hear anything but felt vibrate on behind my left ear. They took bone conduction headphone off.

Okay, you read above. All the years, I never think of learning to listen to any words on my left hearing because I never attention to it. When first time wear hearing aids and never think of anything but noises outside or inside in house. I know I always depend on my left than my right because of hard of hearing. Also, I ignore the important thing in my life is listening to words. I knew I am deaf period.

Back in Texas, elementary school in hearing class. I was writing for spelling test in the class. The teacher stated the word, we write to spell it out (you know spelling bees). First time I heard the word without look at the sign language interpreter. I was so confused and shocked at the same time. I looked at my HOH friend behind me. “What?”, I asked myself. I was so afraid and not understand what I hear. I decide to keep shut my mouth till learning some more about hearing words.

I kept picking the words like couple or three words in a year. I did not practice hears the words because not use it all the time. I been pay attention to face by face all the time, not have hearing aids wear all the time. Even I was in speech therapy and hears the words but still ignore them. As adult, at audiology and notice them differently because of testing on my ears. My right ear is deaf but not stable with noisy or understand the words. My left ear does.

When I had hearing aids wearing and can tell that it does running across over my head. Many people I met who are deaf like me, wear hearing aid on one side and cannot feel the vibrate. Few people I met who are deaf and HOH like me, wear hearing aid can hear across over the head and can feel vibrate. I knew deaf and HOH does not wear hearing aids because of tired of so much noisy, batteries changes in each 10 days, and stressed.

Hearing aids are STRESSED! Whoa! My dad lost his hearing due of his old age. He wore all the time. Me? Not wear them all the time. I would need them when I am at conference, being with hearing friends or working. I need to hear it because I do not want to look fool if I walk away without hearing aids on. I should wear like my dad’s because I wanted to listen music all the time! LOL.

Later ~DW

I been gone to audiology specialist for many years in my life because I born DEAF, and it becomes my habit annually or so. Why I had a visit with them is because of Social Security Administration wanted to prove I am DEAF, so I went there today.

Many years, I always knew I am deaf, but my left ear is hard of hearing. My right ear is very deaf! I never notice anything different with any noises but just raise my hand when hear the noise. Hear on left then on right then on both. Always same as old habits. Headphone and Bone Conduction Headphone.

Today, I went to ENT (Ears, Nose and Throat) office. My SSA is paying for my attendant and take test. Of course, I told them I am deaf but that was demands so I have nothing with them.

Anyway, when I got the call and lead me to that audiology office. She asked me some questions and I answered. I told her that my left ear is hoh and right ear is deaf. She took focus on my left ear first before use my right ear. The famous audiology building box, I LOVED it. LOL. On headphone, I listened on my left ear. She voiced and reported her on words that I would understand clearly. Not much words I would understand. My right ear silences.

Next, she wanted me to hear some of high, middle, or low frequencies on my left ear. I raise my hand. Then use my right ear, raise my hand. Both, same thing.

She asked words on my right ear and heard like confused, unstable, or rattled. I cannot understand those words. She took the headphone to bone conduction headphone. Test on my right ear, not hear anything but felt vibrate on behind my left ear. She took bone conduction headphone and asked me to go doctor’s office for checkup or talking with him. Whatever SSA has demands for him to write that I am true business deaf. Sigh.

I had my hearing aids with me all the time but when I do not wear them then I am actually DEAF. No sounds…. nothing!

More to write on next article about my deafness. See you later.

~DW

Someone told that there is blue is for the girl and pink for the boy. It makes me wonder about them. She said those colors for the generation because blue is soft for the girls and pink is strong for the boys. Okay, let’s research this. I see those years been carried. Let me show you here.

All years, both genders wore WHITE DRESS. Yes, boys wore dress when toddler like my papaw wore his! Why white? It is gender-neutral clothes or toy, whatever is because of the way people thinks of baby’s gender. 19th century, the way, they think that boys need pink color because of their stronger and bolder and that girls need blue color because of fair and gentle. 21st century, the way, they think different about boys and girls color for the gender surprises before newborn.

Many people see blue clothes and would think it is GIRL! Not boy? Yes, it does. Mine is GREEN, no one know my gender! LOL. Worse for my mother is trying dress me up as pink color and people called me BOY! LOL. Funny, I am blue-eyed myself. When you see babies has blue-eyed and wore blue clothes that would make them more excellent reasoning! Okay. I always wore blue jeans and my blue-eyed made brighter and more excellent too. Interesting? About color hair make their more excellent reasoning too. Mine were blonde and now dark color.

You know Rosie, the Riveter? In the 1940s, World War II. She wore blue shirt and had red headband at factories jobs. That’s her. Then later, the men come back from frontline and starts to be businessman in 1947 and the designer like Christian Dior were advertising of the postwar ideal so think women needs to be soft, flowing and feminine pink. That becomes history for the rest of years.

Well, in 1960s decided to drop the gender color. Let me left you the article that I found.

“The idea was that dressing girls in pink was going to lead to them continuing to feel like they needed to conform to the gender rules that had been set in place a few decades before. When women stepped out of the factories and back into the kitchens, they gave up careers and work outside of the house to become homemakers again. When they did that, they donned those pink clothes and it became a symbol that 1960s feminists wanted nothing to do with. Dress like the boys, the theory went, and you were going to be taken seriously (like the boys). That was also the start of the argument that there was no biological reason for girls to favor pink over blue, and that it was the way we were raising our children that made the color (and gender) divide an accepted thing. Clothing colors became, once again, gender-neutral.”

“Kids that wore blue shirts picked blue items, and kids that wore red shirts gravitated toward red.”

“Berries are red, and the more women were drawn to the color, the easier it was to find the berries. That might seem like a bit of a stretch, but that’s science for you!”

I love both colors so who cares?

NAZI prisoners wore pink triangle because of gay? jew? The way ideal of look feminine but boys are not gay but look like while in World War II. Those years, girls wore pink triangle for some reasons. That was myth thing. NAZI is gone now. Just a thought.

Since 2011, Lot of people wore everything colors. Most favorite color is BLUE. Least favorite color is YELLOW.

Any more comments? Let me know.

~ DW

There is lot of people been into mental health for long time and very common to us. They are just thought and strange states in their life. That is trigger unexpecting.

Let me tell you two stories. One is real in my life. Other is on TV show.

Not know if you already watch tv show called, Mary Kills People. Mary’s older daughter, Jess been friend with her classmate, Noami, at school. Also, both are dancers. Mary’s ex-husband dating Noami’s mother. Strange paths. LOL

Season One, they were secret lover for a while. They found the box where we were going to make out. Noami took one of dose and Jess told her don’t touch the box because it’s for her mom. One night, they were doing dancing show and Noami dropped as faint. Noami awoke at ER and met Mary, the doctor. She told her that she knows about that dose and took a drop that make freak Mary out. Mary had to cover Noami’s reason faint at dance show. Mary told her that dose is dangerous and don’t take any. Few weeks later, Noami and Jess went to some party. Noami found boy have drugs and tried coke with him. She asked Jess to take it too. Jess refused and felt rejected. Noami thinks it is okay to try. Jess told her to be wanting to be sober up and still lover where they wanted to be. End of season, Jess broke up with her.

Season Two, Jess finds new girl and befriend with her. Noami learned about Mary’s interview with patient about death by watch video on laptop. She tries to get Jess’s attention, but Jess was too busy with new girl. The new girl invited Jess to come over, but Noami wanted to involve so invites others to come over too. Noami saw what they are doing and try to dance with them. Jess kept rejected her. Noami becomes self as depresses beginning. She wanted Jess all she wants. Noami tried to get Jess attention but nothing happening. At finally, Noami becomes angry and grab Jess’s laptop and show her video of her mom about death. Jess was so stocked and confused. Noami left without saying anything. Jess got to see her mom and explain everything what she saw on video, her mom admitted.

Season Three, Jess learned that her girlfriend breaks up for learning about her mom being killing people. Jess tried to call Noami but no answers. She started to freak out and ran to Noami’s house. Noami open and welcome her enters. Jess explained why. Noami been alone all herself because her mom been out of town and left her alone. Jess sees the mess in house, not ever clean. Noami tries to kiss her, Jess refused. She wanted to be friend, not lover anymore. Next few weeks, Jess went to school and not see Noami for a while, started to worry about her. She went to Noami and find her blood. Noami’s shoulder was cut and wanted Jess to stich like her mom like doctor. Jess does care about her but stubborn about her behavior. Noami wanted to test Jess for take of care. Noami plan to jump the cliff from her bedroom and Jess saved her. Noami walks middle of road and cars passed her. Jess saved her again. Noami refused go back to school and Jess started to worry about her being depressed and suicide. At the end, Noami asked Jess to give her death dose that Mary does. Jess refused and Noami gave her the dose and asked to do it. Jess decided to do it, but the drink was just water. Noami upsets after learning it is not the dose. Jess called her mom, Mary come over and explain to Noami about therapy that Jess offered. Mary and Jess relieved. Noami at rehab for healing her mental health.

Season Four? Nope. Cancelled.

Smile, DW

There is lot of people been into mental health for long time and very common to us. They are just thought and strange states in their life. That is trigger unexpecting.

Let me tell you two stories. One is real in my life. Other is on TV show.

My friend, JL (blessed her name) is wonderful girl I ever met since we were camping. We were kids and mates in different sections. We grow up and I have no idea about her until I met her again. She told me about her foster parents and biological parents. I knew about her foster parents mostly of time, but her biological parents were interesting to meet in later of years. Anyway, she been missing for a while and met my brother, also dating him for short time. I got chance to talk with her and not aware about her feelings against foster parents. She talked like everything is good and happy in her life. I believe her.

Once, we graduated our high school (her school in Benton, TX and mine in Dallas, TX) We did not see each other until we are in late of 20s. I am two years older than her. She surprised me in her different looks. She seems like she was in wild side, not in plain girl. Our talking is the same as before. She got me into gay bar and learned about her. She took me to private chat in the car. She told me everything about her foster parents and it was painful to see her being suffering. I asked her about her biological parents and chance to meet them. Dad is dealer and Mom is nurse. Both are different than normal parents I have met. Her sister and brother are half by her mom. She has real brother who is 16 years younger than her by both parents.

Okay, let’s say. Her foster parents are high class and very respectful. She told me her feeling against are disobeyed, disrespects, and destroy her life. She wanted normal family and friends. She does not want those kinds of people where her family sociable. She told them she is super gay and had girlfriend. They kicked her out of house and moved to her biological mom’s home. Her mom accepted her as who she is. Her girlfriend started to hurt her and decide to break up. She fears that her girlfriend follows her anywhere, so she starts to hang with gay friends to avoid her girlfriend. Those years, she been spreading with her biological family and friends in Dallas. She saw me and took me, so I accepted her as my girlfriend. She keeps looking around over her shoulder, I told her to relax because she is with friends now.

All years, I been with her and off. I still watch out for her no matter what. She decided to drop me as girlfriend relationship and accepted to one girl who always wanted her so to let her go. Her girlfriend become my butch friend and asked me many questions about her. WHY? WHAT DO I DO? WHAT CAN I MAKE HER HAPPY? many questions. I become overwhelmed with all that. I felt so heartbroken about her because I can see her life become nothing. One day, I went out to picnic with them and saw what JL did and her girlfriend screams. I walk slowly to her and try to calm her down. JL knows me for many years and I always softer heart to people. Her girlfriend saw me what I did to her. JL wanted to kill herself for her life. I told her DON’T because she has life and friends have her, etc. She kept look over her shoulder to see if her old girlfriend followed her. I looked around no one, just me and her girlfriend. I know I hate being third wheel. Other day, I went to the park with friends. Her girlfriend asked me to watch her. I walk to her and see what she is doing over there. We chatted just fine but in the few minutes, she wanted to kill herself. I shake my head as no but same time, her girlfriend ran back to her and thanked me for watch her. She pushed her girlfriend away and try to jump into sewer. Her girlfriend looks at me like WHAT DO YOU DID? I shake my head because she had mental issue at the minutes. She has us stand front of her. Her girlfriend pulls her out from sewer and asked me to help. I helped her but not the way she wanted. She fights us. I am very emotional person – Thank you to Cancer sign.

Few years later before her time. She looked happy and exciting. Her girlfriend hoped that would help her felt better. I had guts something wrong but gave her good positives. Couple years later, I have moved to St Louis and left her alone with her girlfriend. Then a year later, I learned that my grandpa passed away, so I come down to Texas for funeral to be with family. That week, my friend JL killed by hit and ran. I tried to learn how she ended up killed. Gladly, my friend sends me articles about her killed and realized she WANTED her life to be END. I knew her for many years, and no one understands her. I saved those articles in my book.

HOW? Her dad and her girlfriend are the dealers. They are partner for a while. She knew the drugs are WRONG, but she been into deal with her dad. She has no choice and accepts her dad because she loves him so much. So, she took one of those to make her relax. She wanted to walk out during the night quiet. She walks across the middle of street and car hits her. The car did not see her because the street dark. The driver turned around to check on her, she told the driver and girlfriend to leave her alone. She has several sick issues in her system and wanted to suffer to die. The driver called 911 and told them what happening that it was run and hit accident. Her girlfriend tries to save her, but she pushed her away, wanted to leave her alone to go her life end. She passed away on the scene. Her skull, back, and legs are broken by her disease at birth.

That was no expecting happens. She wanted it to be END her life like that.

~ DW

Since we had heard from Supreme Court on Roe vs Wade. Is it ending? Is it beginning? One thing, we don’t know about history itself. Do we know enough for girls and women rights? Today, I attended the workshop and found something that we might not aware about. Maybe you already know. Remember I told you I have not aware about political or history in the past and still learning.

Okay, today I went to workshop and good thing teacher had bring up that case. All history is OLD but currently is NEW. Let me tell you. What we do after that law passed? Against abortion, what would girls or women do? Where can we find or what they would do with girls and women? ETC. That!

Foster Care had about 62,000 kids who do not have adoption yet. No one wanted any kids who are pre-teens to 18 years old who still at foster care. Mostly parents preferred babies or adoption as babies. Many females send their babies to foster care or to adoption service. You know many parents went to adoption service and less than foster care service. Foster Care has more kids than adoption service. Why they send to Adoption instead of Foster Care? Foster Care admitted that they cannot afford fed or clothes for all kids who grow up. That is why Foster Care asked for our money to donation or take from our tax deductions.

Foster kids grow up who lives at foster care and has no care of or not show love enough by staffs. They ended criminal, mental health, or homeless, etc. Not many would graduate university, only 6% succussed. Those kids become adult and not have money because they are expelling at 18 then live on their own. How can we help with that? Why not adopt them and training them with success? They do not have enough food to fed because foster care can’t afford to buy food for everyone or not enough clothes for them, too. They need our help and encourage, not just think “oh they take care of” No there is no way to cover that much.

Pre-teens female and adult females has medical issues. Pre-teens female can be accident pregnancy at 10 to 13 and not development enough to be a woman body. They could have an abortion or can keep but will cause problem for young girls. Think TWICE. When females becoming teenagers as 15 to 18 can be enough to have a baby then they made decision on what they choice. An abortion because not want to have a baby at young age or keep a baby till 9th month to decide on adopt or raise herself. Either one. Adult female has medical reasons. No one can twist their arms to keep a baby or would kill the mother instead. Ovaries are different in women body like others part on women body. What if egg stuck in tube and have to remove the egg (that is reason). What if not enough development in uterus and have to remove (that is reason). Many lists of “what ifs” reasons from women medical issues. We (ladies) make a choice.

New name of the brand is THE WOMB TO THE TOMB. (First of birth development till the time of death).

~DW

I am not here to argue about it. I am here to see and tell show of ROE vs WADE in my lifetime. It been on case for long time like started in 1971 but said it ends in 1973? Well, it been fight for many years by women’s right on an abortion and Life.

In my time, 80s. Back in Texas. Yes, Texas is famous state within different subjects. I resided there for 20 years, not have to blame me for that. When I took that history in class and lost in it because I never understand it. All I know, it is OLD case and kept bring it up. Many women have an abortion and fighting for strike. Yes, I saw them on television on news. Posters somewhere on the walls, flyers passed, cards from people. Everywhere. I still not understand it at that time, and it really disgusted me.

When I was about 18 years old. I went to church and heard from one of my childhood friend’s parents become upset about her daughter been raped by date rape. She was forced to keep her baby. Current, her son was minor league player. He does not look like bad guy. I remember when I spend with him when he was kid, his behavior was insults by people.

At 20, I was practiced being adult and went to church. I was listened to one of teachers in Sunday School class. He brings up about an abortion and life issues. My friend I know from school. She jumps and argue about it. I can see the points from her opinions by her voice. I started to understand better about it. They started to be hot TOPIC. I do not want to be involved so out myself neutral for long time.

Many years, I kept picking all of topics by ROE vs WADE because it keeps come back annually. I know about Date Rape is not funny. I took one class that is self-defense alike TAEKWONDO at University. I learned how to defense myself from rapist.

If you are raped by stranger (not date rape) then what are you doing with that? get an abortion or keep? Raise your kid? What kid would learn by wrong or right? What kid grow up look like?

If women had pregnancy problem, then can be miscarriage or forced to abortion. They have check with doctors before starting to process. Sometimes turned wrong then have it abortion or can hurt the mother. Either is preferred? Mothers hate it when that happens, can imagine that.

Vasectomy is sticky issues for male. You know male dogs/cats had vasectomy before becoming 7th month old! They could sex if not have it then owners forced female dogs/cats to abortion. SAME IDEA. Same thing as Mother human.

Remember I am not here to argue. Love you!

~ DW

Why is this? I been read the deaf news and would want to fuss at them because many years, I learned that all deaf does not READ!!!!! It made me feel sad and embarrassment.

English is important to read and learning in US. Why they ignore it? Look at German, France or Italy deaf people. They read all the time and signing in their language. Why can’t US deaf people read? All required signing not CAPTIONED!! They always said English is hard to understand. Come on!!!!

Okay. I read in deaf news stated that we, deaf need make law to pass this to allow television to have all ASL interpreters on all tv shows. Not just government or news. ALL of TV SHOWS and MOVIES. Whoa! Time out! I can understand all NEWS or GOVERNMENT but why TV shows or Movies? I saw the tv commercial and actually STINK!!! Sorry I have to say that. That was so BAD. Not know if you saw that commerical.

ASL Interpreters signing and pretty would distracting so much because we will miss best pictures on the screen. We would focus on the interpreter all the time.

What about kids? Learning disabilities? They required captioned on TV. What about foreign? Same thing. Subtilties is for everyone to read. I LOVE those subtilties on TV. If no captioned, then how we read or learn those words? Nothing. Nothing.

What about those voices? Would ASL interpreter do that for multiple voices?

You know what? I have met few deaf friends in high school, and they were exciting to have real English book in class. They showed me that book. I was so SHOCKED and HEARTBROKEN same time. They do not know much of English in elementary school or middle school. They finally learned in high school because of University now required ENGLISH. Mine already in advance English since school year along with hearing classes.

That is why deaf does not READ or not UNDERSTAND the English! They need ASL for reading. Sad.

Sorry I have to vent that out.

~ DW

ESL is English Second Language. I know you know that too! LOL! Reason I am telling you about this because just had conference with my dad. He said this and I said that. We see different in our experiences in language courses. Mother took Spanish and Father took French. Me took nothing, maybe English. Why English? I been using the American sign language in deaf community as communication access. Where is language of English? No.

I raised learned in English language then SEE (Signing Exact English) plus TC (Total Communication) then ASL (American Sign Language). English? No. I took advanced classes on Reading, and English during I was kid. Later on, I started to use the ASL and my English become low than except. I do reading and writing a lot. That helps me see what I am doing.

Many times, I took my times to hanging with my friends and learning that they are studying English and Reading in Elementary school level. Mine is into Secondary school level. I wondered why they took that level is because they only learn sign language then English in the common world. They could take Secondary school level in college or university if requested.

Gimme an example:

Spanish into English. Translated.

French into English. Translated.

Sign Language into English. Translated. (no way to translated, visibility only)

All languages had translated. ESL is helping them understand the language as English. I do not know much about foreign language outer there but see the pictures if we are living in France and FSL (French Second Language). Ha!

Have a good evening!

~ DW